My Confession About Becoming a Sissy
I just came across some older porn pics that somebody posted and it got me thinking about the past and what I liked when I looked at pictures and how I ended up where I am today. I remember looking at the girls in pics like this and thinking I want to be the guy having two girls like that. Thinking about fucking them both or having them share a bj and how much fun it would be to be in a threesome. Or I thought about having one of them as my slutty girlfriend where she would suck and fuck me whenever dressed in sexy lingerie and heels.
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But as I looked at more porn
I started to realize that I really didnt want to be the guy I really wanted to be the girl. When I looked at pictures I really didn't envy the guy I envied the girl, I loved how they looked, smiled, and acted. I started to want to know what it felt like to be the girl. I loved the heels they wore, the clothes they wore, I even loved the way the did their hair and makeup. It didn't seem to matter what I looked at I always envied the girl. I tried to find more magazines with girls dressed the way I wanted to. Then I started to look for girls peeing which to me was a feminine thing. Than I went looking for women that were pregnant another thing which to me was feminine. I started to steal bras and panties form my girlfriends friends or from my guy friends sisters. So after a bunch of failed relationships during this time which culminated with my last girfriend saying "what am I going to do with that thing" just before we were about to fool around, commenting about my small clit. With that I really started to search for more porn to realease my sexual tension, when one day while out at a pornshop getting more material I came across a bundle of magazine which contained screw magazine. Well while looking inside of screw magazine I came across a page like this. I really didn't think that guys could look just like females I was amazed but also a little envious. I wasn't really sure if this was reall or fake and I needed to find out.
So I started to look for everything that had to do with shemales and crossdressing and started to realize I envied them as much as the females I looked. Around this time I was trying to find out and really see if the shemales were that hot and sexy as they look in the magazines. Well one day coming home from work going through the city I decided to stop at show world because I wanted to look at some women and admire them. I went in to a peep booth to releive some of my built up sexual tension. Well while in there a beautiful brunette about 5'7" -5'8" started to dance and had maybe D cup breasts. I was just mesmorized by her beauty and envious of her shoes he lingerie her breasts just everything. Just as I am getting close to cumming I run out of money for the peep window. So I decide to leave the booth get more come back before she is done and finish the job I started. When I get back I see the women that was stripping outside the booth in her sexy lingerie and her big beautiful tits. She sees me and comes over an asks if I want a private lap dance. I immediately say yes and we head to a small room with a chair and table. I pay her and she starts to go to town giving me a lap dance. She takes her bra off and she playing with her big tits in my face and grinding he ass on me when she can see that I am excited and tells me to take out my cock so I can play with it. Well when I do she kind of chuckles which makes me feel real insecure and embarrassed. With that she pulls a cock out of her panties and starts to stroke it, eventually it ends up being like an 8" long. I sit there in amazement that she could look so beautiful but be a guy I didn't know that shemales where in here stripping. She still is rubbing against me and looks down to notice my cock is still hard so she backs up a little and puts her cock right in my face and tells me to lick it. I am so intioxicated by her beauty and the fact that she looks so sexy and feminine but is a man. I start to kiss her cock being so horny and overwhelmed by my sexual feelings towards her and her cock I start to suck it. My mind races as I suck her cock not thinking of her as a man but as a female. I get lost in trying to do what I have seen many times in the magazine by the women I envy. Eventually she starts to get more and more agressive, and she starts to fuck my mouth and makes me gag while tears well up in my eyes, all the while telling me about what a real cock she has and how inferior I am. When she finally cums its a clear fluid and not that much with that she looks at me with my hard cock out, tears running down my face and makes a few comments about my cock not being a cock while putting hers next to mine and telling me about how I just sucked a real cock. She than fixes herself up puts her bra and panties back on all the while kind of giggling and than leaves. I sit ther thinking about what just happened. I think about my tiny clit and how I just pleased a cock, I think about how excited I was and envious I was of her. I think about being like her and having guys get hard for me and think about what it would be like for me to please those cocks. As I walk out and leave I can't help but notice some of the guys walking in with bulges in their pants and thinking how big they are and if I could get them hard enough to please.
Which brings me back to the old porno pictures that I remember looking at and how I use to envy the girls. But now I envy the girls because I want to be like them and make those cocks hard like them so I can suck and fuck them, like this pic.
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I started to realize that I really didnt want to be the guy I really wanted to be the girl. When I looked at pictures I really didn't envy the guy I envied the girl, I loved how they looked, smiled, and acted. I started to want to know what it felt like to be the girl. I loved the heels they wore, the clothes they wore, I even loved the way the did their hair and makeup. It didn't seem to matter what I looked at I always envied the girl. I tried to find more magazines with girls dressed the way I wanted to. Then I started to look for girls peeing which to me was a feminine thing. Than I went looking for women that were pregnant another thing which to me was feminine. I started to steal bras and panties form my girlfriends friends or from my guy friends sisters. So after a bunch of failed relationships during this time which culminated with my last girfriend saying "what am I going to do with that thing" just before we were about to fool around, commenting about my small clit. With that I really started to search for more porn to realease my sexual tension, when one day while out at a pornshop getting more material I came across a bundle of magazine which contained screw magazine. Well while looking inside of screw magazine I came across a page like this. I really didn't think that guys could look just like females I was amazed but also a little envious. I wasn't really sure if this was reall or fake and I needed to find out.
So I started to look for everything that had to do with shemales and crossdressing and started to realize I envied them as much as the females I looked. Around this time I was trying to find out and really see if the shemales were that hot and sexy as they look in the magazines. Well one day coming home from work going through the city I decided to stop at show world because I wanted to look at some women and admire them. I went in to a peep booth to releive some of my built up sexual tension. Well while in there a beautiful brunette about 5'7" -5'8" started to dance and had maybe D cup breasts. I was just mesmorized by her beauty and envious of her shoes he lingerie her breasts just everything. Just as I am getting close to cumming I run out of money for the peep window. So I decide to leave the booth get more come back before she is done and finish the job I started. When I get back I see the women that was stripping outside the booth in her sexy lingerie and her big beautiful tits. She sees me and comes over an asks if I want a private lap dance. I immediately say yes and we head to a small room with a chair and table. I pay her and she starts to go to town giving me a lap dance. She takes her bra off and she playing with her big tits in my face and grinding he ass on me when she can see that I am excited and tells me to take out my cock so I can play with it. Well when I do she kind of chuckles which makes me feel real insecure and embarrassed. With that she pulls a cock out of her panties and starts to stroke it, eventually it ends up being like an 8" long. I sit there in amazement that she could look so beautiful but be a guy I didn't know that shemales where in here stripping. She still is rubbing against me and looks down to notice my cock is still hard so she backs up a little and puts her cock right in my face and tells me to lick it. I am so intioxicated by her beauty and the fact that she looks so sexy and feminine but is a man. I start to kiss her cock being so horny and overwhelmed by my sexual feelings towards her and her cock I start to suck it. My mind races as I suck her cock not thinking of her as a man but as a female. I get lost in trying to do what I have seen many times in the magazine by the women I envy. Eventually she starts to get more and more agressive, and she starts to fuck my mouth and makes me gag while tears well up in my eyes, all the while telling me about what a real cock she has and how inferior I am. When she finally cums its a clear fluid and not that much with that she looks at me with my hard cock out, tears running down my face and makes a few comments about my cock not being a cock while putting hers next to mine and telling me about how I just sucked a real cock. She than fixes herself up puts her bra and panties back on all the while kind of giggling and than leaves. I sit ther thinking about what just happened. I think about my tiny clit and how I just pleased a cock, I think about how excited I was and envious I was of her. I think about being like her and having guys get hard for me and think about what it would be like for me to please those cocks. As I walk out and leave I can't help but notice some of the guys walking in with bulges in their pants and thinking how big they are and if I could get them hard enough to please.
Which brings me back to the old porno pictures that I remember looking at and how I use to envy the girls. But now I envy the girls because I want to be like them and make those cocks hard like them so I can suck and fuck them, like this pic.
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