How old were you
When was the first time you wanted a man to fuck you?
I want to know when were you ready to get fucked? Not when was your first time!
I want to know when were you ready to get fucked? Not when was your first time!
8 年 前
At the start of middle school, my parents and I moved to Pennsylvania and I was thrown into a new school and no friends. Again, an all-white school where I looked different than everybody else. And the first question was asked, but now more biting questions. Like "How much did your parents pay for you?" Or since I was devoid of my birth culture, was called names like "banana, yellow on the outside, white on the inside." This did not help me, and I became introverted and shied away from crowds in general.
Then in High School, I somewhat became sexually active with some self-exploration that lead to eventually finding my great orgasmic release. Along with the rest of being a woman in America. Developing breast and buying bras. Having my period every month and dealing with that mess. But the racial slurs were only worse for me.
A memory surfaced about a day in ninth grade when a group of white girls had cornered me in the girl's locker room after gym class. I’d felt such hope when I saw their smiles think they had they changed their minds about me? One of them, with a particular shade of blond hair, leaned toward me, her voice low asking me, “We have a question, Vickie, and you’re the only one we can ask.” And though I had been conditioned, through years of experience, to expect a trap, still I was momentarily taken in by what I have mistaken for friendship. When expecting a friendly word or an invitation to come to a slumber party, but no. I heard the blonde girl in a louder voice ask me, “Do you have a sideways pussy? My brother told me Asian girls have those.” I ran out of there crying and was excused from taking gym for the rest of the year.
When I turned 17, I let a boy at a different school take my virginity. He was not what most folks would call "white", as he was Greek and dark skin. He also had a fairly large penis and only had sex with me that one time on my birthday. Just a notch on his bedpost for having fucked an Asian girl. Not the best for me, but I felt like "I got something out of the way" in my life back then.