Thoughts on having a smaller size penis

I never really played sports or saw guys naked in a locker room growing up so i never really had anything to compare to but i can still remember my first thought about being small. I was about 20 years old and watching a porno , i had just moved away to college and rented my first porno. I remember thinking that i looked smaller than those guys and it felt small in my hand. I didnt think much more about it since it was a porno and i figured maybe they used camera tricks to make the guys seem larger. The next time i had feelings about being small it was during sex and i had trouble keeping on a condom, i only had one slip completely off but after that i was always worried and reaching down to make sure it was still on. Even if the condom didnt slip all the way off when i pulled out of a girl all the excess condom was hanging off my dick, like 2 or 3 inches of condom. I think when it really hit home was after i was married and me and the wife decided to take some nude pics and i just remember thinking it looked kinda small for my body. After this i began researching penis size and also discovered that it kinda turned me on to be teased about it and that other guys where also into small penis humiliation.
About 5 years into my marriage we decided to allow each other to play with other people. I will never forget when my wife admitted to having sex with another man and when she told me he was hung , it was such a turn on. He had actually broke a condom while they were having sex. She had a regular lover for many years with a thick cock, she would go on date nights and i would wait on her to come home and we would fuck and she would tell me how good he felt inside her. It was such a turn on thinking about him filling her up , better than i could ever do, making her feel things i couldnt.
Even tho humiliation is a turn on i do feel comfortable with my body and i like my penis size!