The after effects of being sexually assaulted ...
The after effect of being sexually assaulted by three teenage males
I was in the ninth grade just starting the second semester when I encountered and tried to face my greatest fear. Being near three of the most heinous Juvenal Delinquents imaginable. I had witness their attack on several students from my eight grade year and had heard of how they had sexually assaulted a number of female students. Some of the girls had transferred to other schools those that remain were not like they were before the attacks. Their minds had been so altered that they cared little about their appearance or hygiene.
There had been rumors of boys that had been attacked by the three but no firm confirmation as to what had transpired. So when I found myself being swept along a fear of being caught skipping class or running along with them in escape ... I took to run!
Soon I found myself locked in the home of the two brothers along with their cousin, they had this all planned and I had fell into their trap! The three of them attacked me in such a way as to disable any defense on my behalf and to subdue me in a fashion that they could take advantage. I had no ideal of what was to happen to me that dreadful day but I survived to tell the story years later.
Let me just say that I was the most sheltered teenager you could find, the first years of my life was spent being raised by my paternal grandmother. After her passing I went back to my parents and was looked after by my oldest sister till she married and left the home. From then on I was a latch key k**, parents worked doing the day and I was allowed to go and come as I please long as I did not get into trouble.
My parents would check in with me doing the day and tell me what to do, this was all before cell phones and computers, color television was in it's infancy. No such things as DVDs or personal communication devices. The Polaroid cameras were just becoming available. This was a camera that produced a finished photo in a few minutes after the picture was taken. Very expensive and hard for a working family to obtain.
I had seen Playboy mags of scantly clothe woman but the act of sex was distant from my mind. I was more or less consumed with toy soldiers, toy cars and looking forward to getting my very first bicycle if I kept my grades up enough to get into tenth grade!
This is why finding myself being penned down over an ottoman and my pants stripped from my body was so confusing to me. I thought that the most to happen was I would get struck repeatedly by my on belt on my naked buttocks.
Having one of them to smear a slick substance between my buttocks and my anus probed with fingers were so repulsive that my mind did not even comprehend what was going on. I struggled and tried to fight to free myself all to no avail until I felt the bulbous blunt object being pressed between my buttocks and against my anus. In my mind I thought it was a broom handle or some other object with a rounded tip.
It was not until one of them had pressed half his penis into my anus that I understood he had entered me. It was longer then that for me to know I was being sexually assaulted. That did not enter my mind until I heard one tell the other he was ' ... fucking to slow! ... ' Still I did not comprehend that he was having sex with me! I did not know two guys could engage in sex or what the concept of sex was. I knew what a penis and a vagina was but did not know how they enter acted.
The two of them used me getting me ready for the third who was the leader and was enormously huge. I thought the first was huge and that the second would rip my butt apart. The third guy was twice as large as the first and his girth was bigger then the second. The three of them used me for six or seven hours in which my mind surrendered to their desires.
Doing their assault one of them had one of those Polaroid cameras and took numerous pictures of them having sex with me. Some close ups of penis in my anus and also of me preforming oral sex on them. They took pictures that shielded their faces and some that shield my face but my lips and their penis shaft along with their penis inserted into my anus were very clear.
I used a hand held mirror to examine my anus and see if their was any visible injuries, to my surprise my anus looked swollen but otherwise normal. By now the swelling had diminished and it just looked like a wrinkled opening, the pain had subsided when I defecated. That first day there was bleeding and much anguish and burning but it all subsided in time and I tried to get it out of my mind. I was determined that know one would know and it would not happen again!
It was about six weeks later that pictures of the assault started to appear on the student information board by the cafeteria. Along with notes directing the person to meet at the spot they met earlier. Once I heard that there were pictures and managed to get a look at one I knew it was me.
Rumors circulated that it was a girl that was portrayed and when the school was made aware of the pictures there was numerous announcements asking for information as to who was posting such pictures and who was involved in the pictures. One announcement even went as far as to say ' ... to the young lady involved. We know this was done against your will and you will not be held accountable if you come forward and identify who took the pictures or who the guy or guys were! ... '
It was no secrete that the three hoodlums were behind it but with no clear link they were not prosecuted. I was too fearful and ashamed to come forward and tell what happened and not doing so opened the door to the most depraved time of my high school years.
In order for no more pictures to be posted I made my way to the clearing where it all started and was escorted back to the home for more sessions of sexual debasement! The three of them turned me into their 'objet de sex' and utilized me as such at their discretion.
Not only did they use me they even passed me around to their male family members and some of their friends and associates. I have never considered myself to be gay, I am attracted to and have been with females and have fathered k**s but every now and then I find myself underneath a guy being fucked deep and hard untill he ejaculated and deposits his seed deep in my guts.
I was in the ninth grade just starting the second semester when I encountered and tried to face my greatest fear. Being near three of the most heinous Juvenal Delinquents imaginable. I had witness their attack on several students from my eight grade year and had heard of how they had sexually assaulted a number of female students. Some of the girls had transferred to other schools those that remain were not like they were before the attacks. Their minds had been so altered that they cared little about their appearance or hygiene.
There had been rumors of boys that had been attacked by the three but no firm confirmation as to what had transpired. So when I found myself being swept along a fear of being caught skipping class or running along with them in escape ... I took to run!
Soon I found myself locked in the home of the two brothers along with their cousin, they had this all planned and I had fell into their trap! The three of them attacked me in such a way as to disable any defense on my behalf and to subdue me in a fashion that they could take advantage. I had no ideal of what was to happen to me that dreadful day but I survived to tell the story years later.
Let me just say that I was the most sheltered teenager you could find, the first years of my life was spent being raised by my paternal grandmother. After her passing I went back to my parents and was looked after by my oldest sister till she married and left the home. From then on I was a latch key k**, parents worked doing the day and I was allowed to go and come as I please long as I did not get into trouble.
My parents would check in with me doing the day and tell me what to do, this was all before cell phones and computers, color television was in it's infancy. No such things as DVDs or personal communication devices. The Polaroid cameras were just becoming available. This was a camera that produced a finished photo in a few minutes after the picture was taken. Very expensive and hard for a working family to obtain.
I had seen Playboy mags of scantly clothe woman but the act of sex was distant from my mind. I was more or less consumed with toy soldiers, toy cars and looking forward to getting my very first bicycle if I kept my grades up enough to get into tenth grade!
This is why finding myself being penned down over an ottoman and my pants stripped from my body was so confusing to me. I thought that the most to happen was I would get struck repeatedly by my on belt on my naked buttocks.
Having one of them to smear a slick substance between my buttocks and my anus probed with fingers were so repulsive that my mind did not even comprehend what was going on. I struggled and tried to fight to free myself all to no avail until I felt the bulbous blunt object being pressed between my buttocks and against my anus. In my mind I thought it was a broom handle or some other object with a rounded tip.
It was not until one of them had pressed half his penis into my anus that I understood he had entered me. It was longer then that for me to know I was being sexually assaulted. That did not enter my mind until I heard one tell the other he was ' ... fucking to slow! ... ' Still I did not comprehend that he was having sex with me! I did not know two guys could engage in sex or what the concept of sex was. I knew what a penis and a vagina was but did not know how they enter acted.
The two of them used me getting me ready for the third who was the leader and was enormously huge. I thought the first was huge and that the second would rip my butt apart. The third guy was twice as large as the first and his girth was bigger then the second. The three of them used me for six or seven hours in which my mind surrendered to their desires.
Doing their assault one of them had one of those Polaroid cameras and took numerous pictures of them having sex with me. Some close ups of penis in my anus and also of me preforming oral sex on them. They took pictures that shielded their faces and some that shield my face but my lips and their penis shaft along with their penis inserted into my anus were very clear.
I used a hand held mirror to examine my anus and see if their was any visible injuries, to my surprise my anus looked swollen but otherwise normal. By now the swelling had diminished and it just looked like a wrinkled opening, the pain had subsided when I defecated. That first day there was bleeding and much anguish and burning but it all subsided in time and I tried to get it out of my mind. I was determined that know one would know and it would not happen again!
It was about six weeks later that pictures of the assault started to appear on the student information board by the cafeteria. Along with notes directing the person to meet at the spot they met earlier. Once I heard that there were pictures and managed to get a look at one I knew it was me.
Rumors circulated that it was a girl that was portrayed and when the school was made aware of the pictures there was numerous announcements asking for information as to who was posting such pictures and who was involved in the pictures. One announcement even went as far as to say ' ... to the young lady involved. We know this was done against your will and you will not be held accountable if you come forward and identify who took the pictures or who the guy or guys were! ... '
It was no secrete that the three hoodlums were behind it but with no clear link they were not prosecuted. I was too fearful and ashamed to come forward and tell what happened and not doing so opened the door to the most depraved time of my high school years.
In order for no more pictures to be posted I made my way to the clearing where it all started and was escorted back to the home for more sessions of sexual debasement! The three of them turned me into their 'objet de sex' and utilized me as such at their discretion.
Not only did they use me they even passed me around to their male family members and some of their friends and associates. I have never considered myself to be gay, I am attracted to and have been with females and have fathered k**s but every now and then I find myself underneath a guy being fucked deep and hard untill he ejaculated and deposits his seed deep in my guts.
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